If only I could go back and begin again!

Life plays fate games with us

It keeps us always in guess.

I live with a dread in my chest

What I may find out next?

and even if there is nothing to worry

I search for a woe in a hurry.

A voice keeps telling at the back of my head

I have to cry over all the leaves shed.

Despite the changes in season

a part of me dread for no reason.

As people around me hustle and bustle

I m left with my buddies, none other than hassles.

My heart is one delicate piece, I m so broken

life has left me thoroughly shaken.

This is not how I wanted to be

I want to be strong, proud to be me.

I have no idea of a content life

to subdue my foolish fears and bring myself alive.

I m the only one to be blamed

letting my negatives take over the positive flame.

Damage done to my life cannot be undone

there is no helping hand to lend.

In this adventurous journey called life 

at any rate, we have to resolve and thrive.

If only I could go back and begin again

to be a good role model for others, but in vain.

Rain

Let the rain drizzle

and my grief melt and dribble.

Let the rain borrow 

all my aching sorrows.

Even if its for a few moments

I will be free from the torment

Cause such is the pain

joy,I can no longer feign.

When the rain dance

it gives me a chance

to be light as a feather

in such a damp weather.

I can now swirl in glee

feeling all my sorrows flee.

Oh rain! can you stay forever

so that my sorrows come never.

A love poem

"Things around have never been the same
since when my eyes met urs..
Whatever I do, its amazing
the way I end up dreamin of u..
How can anyone be lost in someone's thoughts so long?
Is this the way one feel in love?
Your thoughts give me a restless heart
longing for your presence every second.
A heart for a heart, is what we seek in love
I m lucky to get a beautiful heart like yours..
Day by day, we are getting closer..
I'm in love with love and with you, my love.
Your spell is working wonders on my heartbeats
I feel like , I'm not mine anymore..
Falling in the depth of your love, I realize
all I now need, is to be with u.."Azmina Baboo

A Battle between Heart and Mind!

In difficult times of mine,

I ask my heart, what to do?

But my mind crops up yelling

"I know better than she does!"

I find it hard to decide,

to whom should I listen?

Why is it that both of them

never goes in the same boat?

Should have made my life more easier

if they always sung in synch.

But no!They ends up fighting

leaving me in a state of apathy.

Heart and mind are always in a rattle

engaged in a never ending battle.

What will happen in the end?

Lets wait and see, who's gonna bend?

Azmina Baboo.

Star Gazing

With hands on the back of my head;

Breathing slowly, I lay on the ground.

I was staring at the stars,

that embellished the moonless sky.

Its been a long while now;

since I had a rendezvous with you.

The long night musings I shared;

in wordless language with you.

Hearing the stars whisper to me;

"Where have you been so long?"

I smiled and shared my thoughts;

like I used to do!

They glowed with all their might;

taking in turns, one by one!

As if its some kind of gesture;

That, only I can understand!

I lay there for some more time;

talking to my night sky friends.

Then I said goodbye, for a while;

promising another rendezvous soon!

Past, Present & Future.

Past is gone, Future is unknown;
Life is about living in the present.
Past has rendered me sweet memories;
Future never gave me a clear picture.

Memories that are to be cherished,
Can sometimes be a pain.
Cause, now they are invading,
All my day's thoughts!

And the fuzzy days to come,
Arent much helping either.
Trying to keep track of tomorrow,
Robs my every night's sleep!

Life cant be dwelled in memories, I know.
But, why cant I make myself understand?
Past is haunting, Future is taunting;
Stuck in between, is poor me!

Life is not in yesterday & tomorrow;
It exists in this moment, right now!
It may be just a fleeting second;
But life is like, now or never!

Bidding adieu to good old memories;
I'm just gonna live this moment!
What I now need is,
My "presence" in my "present"!

Azmina Baboo.

Bollywood Shayarees.

One of my hobbies are collecting shayaris..I LOVE them. This post includes my favourite shayaris from bollywood movies...

Hume tho apno ne luta

gairon mein kaha dum tha

meri kashti thi dubi wahan

jahan pani kum tha

-From the movie "Dilwaale".

This one is the first shayari that comes to my mind when its all about shayarees. My most favourite one, from the Ajay Devgan movie "Dilwaale". The shayari itself is so deep and the way Ajay devgan presents it in the movie makes it so beautiful. After that soon follows the heartfelt song "Jeeta tha jiske liye, jiske liye martha tha" which completes that scene. Those who have a taste for shayarees will never forget this one if they have watched the movie. Remember Ajay devgan as a mad guy with Raveena Tandon and Sunil Shetty?..

Kahin aag lagne se pehle

uttha hai aisa dhuaan

jaisa hai idhar ka nazaara

vaisa hi udhar ka samaa

-From the movie "Pardes".

Kaate nahin kat the, lamhe intezaar ki

nazren bichaein baite hai raste pe yaar ke

Dil ne kaha dekhe jo jalwe husne yaar ke

laya hain kaun falak se utaar ke

-"Hum aapke hai kaun".

Tere dil mein meri saanson ko panah miljaye

tere ishq mein meri jaan fana hojaye

-From the movie "Fanaa".

Aag suraj mein hain

jalna zameen ko padtha hai

mohabbat nigahein karti hai

thadapna tho dil ko padtha hai

-From the movie "Fanaa".

My heart's unknown desire..

Day in and day out

I'm craving to find,

What's my heart's desire?

that makes me to myself, bind.

My heart aches for something

I know, for sure.

But what does it ache for?

I have no clue, damn sure.

Some unknown passion

is dwelling in there.

How can I fulfil it?

When I am unaware.

As the time passes,

Its burning like fire.

When will I find out?

My heart's unknown desire...

Noone can chase away my dreams!

I closed my eyes in the dark of night

in hope and anticipation of a good dream..

and then my dream spilled in colours

over my heart's canvas for a new picture...

a picture so rich in life, so full of beauty

a picture soaked in the sea of my hopes...

I was floating on the fluffy clouds,

wrapped around in the net of my dreams...

Suddenly was I, pulled away from its embrace

Grief filled me, as my dream faded away...

My heart broke down, I was in anguish

deep pain engulfed me leading to darkness..

But then, came an inner voice from me

as I listened, a smile blossomed on my lips...

now I know, those dreams are only mine

and noone can chase away my dreams!

and so I closed my eyes again,

waiting to get spellbound in my dreams...

Azmina Baboo

a ghazal by Sultana Khanim

I love to read ghazals. Urdu has been my second language in school. It was easily my best subject. But we study urdu only from a lower level. Actually its tougher than hindi, yet very beautiful. Urdu poetry is usually rich in the themes of love , romance and life.It has a philosophical aspect too. There are different types of urdu poetry like nazm, ghazal, rubaiyat etc. The ghazal i am goin 2 post is the one i came across when reading an urdu magazine long ago. i collected it. I just want to share it with my friends. So go on, read n enjoy!!

Dil aap dhadaktha hein ,dhadkaya nahin jata
yeh raaz mohabbat har ek ko bataaya nahin jata

agar ehsaas ho tho mohabbat ko karlo mehsoos

yeh woh jazba hein jo lafzon mein samjhaya nahin jata

Dosti ke liye mohabbat aur khuloos hein lazim!
har haath milaane waale ko dosth samjhaya nahin jata

bahut kam hein log jo dil mein uthar jate hein

har raah chalte ko apna banaaya nahin jata!

koshishon se badal jati hein thaqdeerein khanim
de kar ilzam kismat ko dil ko behlaaya nahin jata

-Sulthana Khanim